I think you weren't mistaken about life being supposed to be fun and free. Family duties, going to work and life responsibilities can be quite fun!

It's just alcohol, messing with our minds, redefining our definition of "fun". Starting this year I reduced dramatically my alcohol intake, three months were enough to start sensing my natural flow of happiness that the brain produces. With no need of poisonous substances whatsoever. Little gentle bites of natural happiness, like reading your articles (for me), which I thank you for!